So good evening everyone!
I was planning on writing some yesterday but when I was eating supper with my parents the weekend took a sudden turn of events. I can't really give any details but the basic gist of things was my Aunt was in the hospital, and my parents went to go be with her, leaving me home alone. I was completely freaking out and I ended up spending the evening over at Andie's house and staying the night there and just being with her and her bunch of amazing kids. It really was quite awesome to have that time with the family, and not have to think about what was happening with my Aunt.
My greatest downfall is my brain. I over think stuff way too much, and sometimes I end up driving myself crazy. So, when bad things happen, I just need to take my mind off of it, and not really think about it as much, because I know that if I do, I'll blow it way out of proportion and totally freak myself out. So wen I was able to go over to Andie's house, and spend time with the family, it really, really helped me because when I'm with them, I can still be thinking about the bad thing, but all of the kids and everyone just distract me enough that I don't blow it out of proportion. So Andie, if you happen to be reading this, I would just like to send my eternal gratitude to you and Kevin for supplying me, essentially, a mental safe haven. Without you and your amazingness and your amazing children I would've gone crazy over night.
So while I was there, I had quite a good time with all the kids. By the time I got there it was the majority of the kids bedtimes so it was mostly just Liz, Malachi, Nic and I. We were outside for a little bit because Liz and I insisted so we went out and sat in the middle of the road (because there were really no cars) while Malachi threw tiny crab apples at us. When the mosquitoes became too overwhelming we three went back inside and watched stuffs on Netflix for the rest of the night with Andie. By 1am we all went to bed, and I was resting assured that my Aunt was going to be okay. The next morning everyone was pretty much up bright and early. We all had breakfast at various times and then everyone pitched in to clean the house a little. After that we were waiting for the time to come when we left to go to church and we all just sat in the living room listening to Nic and Malachi make music. Oh my goodness, was it lovely. I love listening to live music, even if it is just two guys sort of just jamming on the piano and the guitar. I could have sat there forever and listened to them. It was so glorious. At about 11 we all packed up in the van and took off to church. I do quite enjoy being apart of the church that we all go to. It really makes me incredibly happy to know that church is the one that I've been apart of since I was about 5. So then after church we all went back home and my dad came and picked me up and I spent the rest of the evening with my family, keeping my Aunt company. In a nutshell that was pretty much what my weekend consisted of. I got back home at about seven and completely crashed for about two hours, and now here we are!
I want to get something straight here, just because I was thinking about it. I don't want it to seem like I'm not concerned for my aunt. It might seem that way because I'm not freaking out any more. This is really taking a huge toll on me, I am just not good at expressing my emotions a lot of times, and honestly, I don't want people to see me vulnerable. I hate crying in front of people, including my family. I'm the strong happy one of everyone in my life. Yes, I'm highly concerned for my aunt, but I know that she is in Gods hands, and those are the best hands she could ever be in. After hours and hours of praying, I'm putting all my faith into God to keep her safe through the night, and each day as she is on her way to recovery. I'm so happy that she getting better. God can do great things if you just trust him. Of course I'm still constantly praying, and I'd like to ask you all to pray for her as well. Even if you don't pray, just keep her in your thoughts. She needs all the support she can get. Thank you so much everyone!
Thats about it for tonight!
I love you all so stinking much! God bless you all!
~Aria Joy ♥
I was planning on writing some yesterday but when I was eating supper with my parents the weekend took a sudden turn of events. I can't really give any details but the basic gist of things was my Aunt was in the hospital, and my parents went to go be with her, leaving me home alone. I was completely freaking out and I ended up spending the evening over at Andie's house and staying the night there and just being with her and her bunch of amazing kids. It really was quite awesome to have that time with the family, and not have to think about what was happening with my Aunt.
My greatest downfall is my brain. I over think stuff way too much, and sometimes I end up driving myself crazy. So, when bad things happen, I just need to take my mind off of it, and not really think about it as much, because I know that if I do, I'll blow it way out of proportion and totally freak myself out. So wen I was able to go over to Andie's house, and spend time with the family, it really, really helped me because when I'm with them, I can still be thinking about the bad thing, but all of the kids and everyone just distract me enough that I don't blow it out of proportion. So Andie, if you happen to be reading this, I would just like to send my eternal gratitude to you and Kevin for supplying me, essentially, a mental safe haven. Without you and your amazingness and your amazing children I would've gone crazy over night.
So while I was there, I had quite a good time with all the kids. By the time I got there it was the majority of the kids bedtimes so it was mostly just Liz, Malachi, Nic and I. We were outside for a little bit because Liz and I insisted so we went out and sat in the middle of the road (because there were really no cars) while Malachi threw tiny crab apples at us. When the mosquitoes became too overwhelming we three went back inside and watched stuffs on Netflix for the rest of the night with Andie. By 1am we all went to bed, and I was resting assured that my Aunt was going to be okay. The next morning everyone was pretty much up bright and early. We all had breakfast at various times and then everyone pitched in to clean the house a little. After that we were waiting for the time to come when we left to go to church and we all just sat in the living room listening to Nic and Malachi make music. Oh my goodness, was it lovely. I love listening to live music, even if it is just two guys sort of just jamming on the piano and the guitar. I could have sat there forever and listened to them. It was so glorious. At about 11 we all packed up in the van and took off to church. I do quite enjoy being apart of the church that we all go to. It really makes me incredibly happy to know that church is the one that I've been apart of since I was about 5. So then after church we all went back home and my dad came and picked me up and I spent the rest of the evening with my family, keeping my Aunt company. In a nutshell that was pretty much what my weekend consisted of. I got back home at about seven and completely crashed for about two hours, and now here we are!
I want to get something straight here, just because I was thinking about it. I don't want it to seem like I'm not concerned for my aunt. It might seem that way because I'm not freaking out any more. This is really taking a huge toll on me, I am just not good at expressing my emotions a lot of times, and honestly, I don't want people to see me vulnerable. I hate crying in front of people, including my family. I'm the strong happy one of everyone in my life. Yes, I'm highly concerned for my aunt, but I know that she is in Gods hands, and those are the best hands she could ever be in. After hours and hours of praying, I'm putting all my faith into God to keep her safe through the night, and each day as she is on her way to recovery. I'm so happy that she getting better. God can do great things if you just trust him. Of course I'm still constantly praying, and I'd like to ask you all to pray for her as well. Even if you don't pray, just keep her in your thoughts. She needs all the support she can get. Thank you so much everyone!
Thats about it for tonight!
I love you all so stinking much! God bless you all!
~Aria Joy ♥
i just want you to know that i love you with my ENTIRE heart and soul! you are wonderful and incredible. and dont think for a SECOND that i would EVER think you werent concerned! i even messaged andie an email earlier today THANKING her for letting you hang out there because i knew YOU needed to relax. and i knew that I was going to be OKAY! you are so very sweet and i just wanted you to know that you are the most wonderful person i have ever met. <3
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